I’m in what I will call a creative slump.  It’s not that I can’t think of things to make, it’s that I think the things I make aren’t good enough.  I watched a Q & A between Jennifer McGuire and Kristina Werner once, a long time ago.  Someone asked them about their creative process.  I was kind of surprised that they will spend a lot of time coming up with a design and then scrap it if it isn’t “perfect.”  I’m not sure why I thought of that interview, but the thing that struck a cord with me was that idea of “perfect.”  More importantly, what do I consider perfect.  I have to admit, I think my standards are much lower than theirs.  Maybe it’s my lack of experience, or that I’ve set my bar low enough that I am satisfied with the things I produce.  I’ve scrapped videos before, but only when the end result was unacceptable.  And unacceptable is much different than perfect.

Today I tried to do some water coloring with markers and followed a format that I had seen an artist do on a video.  I couldn’t get my marker ink to move like she did, even though I was using a similar type of marker.  In theory, the artist made it look so easy, but it never seems to be as easy for me.  If I want my YouTube channel to be great, then I need to be honest with the watchers.  This isn’t always easy for me and it might not be easy for them either.  It’s a matter of not giving up or giving in.  I’m going to power through, because failure is not an option.  I hope my viewers will do the same.

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