I spent part of the day today shopping for clothes.  I don’t normally talk about things like this, but thought you might be interested.  I went on a medication last summer for my arthritis.  It was an injection that I took once a week called Orencia.  My rheumatologist gave me the highlights of the drugs’ side affects, but failed to mention it can cause significant weight gain.  In the three months I was on the drug, I did not change what I ate, and I gained over thirty pounds.  I’ve worn the same size clothes my entire adult life.  I’ve never been thin, but never weighed this much either.  So my pants haven’t been fitting and I haven’t wanted to appear on video as I just don’t feel good about myself.  I’ve been off the medicine for at least four months and haven’t lost one pound, not one.  It’s disheartening, but I try to roll with the punches and instead of feeling sorry for myself, I decided to buy more clothes, ones that fit.

A local clothing store was having really terrific sales today, so I bought several outfits.  Did I really need them, no.  But honestly, I felt a lot better about myself when I was done shopping because now I feel like me again.  I’m not sure if that makes sense to anyone else, but I was lost in the idea that I couldn’t control the weight gain.Since now I know I probably won’t be able to lose the weight, (as others who have been on this medicine have reported), I need to let it go.  I have a “moon face” from steroids and that doesn’t make me happy, but maybe if my clothes look good, I’ll just forget about why I had to buy them.  No one ever said that life was going to be easy or fair, so if buying a few new clothes makes me feel better, I’m all about it.


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